‘Tis the Season… and all that Jazz

It has been way too long since I have written, I have had quite a bit to say but tend not to write when I am feeling homesick or depressed because if I did that my blog would be quite boring and would end up being a “pity party” and no one wants to read that — do they?
It has been a very long hard month (November) here in the Flattley household.  It first started with some family problems that, at the time. was soul destroying and all consuming.  Luckily, problems have been hashed out, apologies have been made, and relationships have been mended.  Right on top of those problems Chris and I were continually hurt by people we considered friends.  We are attending church in a branch that goes by its own rules and accepts dishonesty more than honesty, gossip more than truth, and ignorance rather than acceptance.  We have 5 primary children in the branch but it feels just like dealing with lots of children.  Never in my life have I been somewhere (school, work, family or otherwise) where I have felt so unimportant, bullied, or so ostracised.  This, unfortunately seems to be getting worse, not better and although there are some genuinely lovely people in the branch – as in life, the bad outweighs the good a lot of the time and Chris and I are praying for a miracle i.e. dissolving the branch.  All of this, coupled with a bit of a cancer scare (nothing dramatic, just a visit to a specialist who said nothing was wrong, the result of a concerned GP), a very lonely Thanksgiving, some missed opportunities, and a dear husband who forgot an important date – November has not been my month.
So now here is December and after all that I am supposed to be feeling the “Christmas Spirit”, which usually comes quite quickly (in the middle of November) for me but seems to be seeping in slowly but surely – enough, anyway, to get our pathetic 4 ft. tree put up and a few decorations up.  This Christmas is difficult, mostly because I am comparing it to last Christmas when we were home in Utah.  This, hopefully, will be our last Christmas in England (living here anyway) so I am trying to be positive. 
Our town is lit up with lights (pictures to come) and it is absolutely FREEZING.  We’ve even had some snow…
This month we are planning a trip to London, it is lovely there at Christmas and helps me re-connect with Chris, since that is where we spent so much time when we were dating.  In a few weeks we are driving (with Chris’ parents) into Belgium to spend a weekend there.  I am really looking forward to it. 
We do have a lot of goals for the new year, one of which is to travel a lot more.  With £1.00 flights all over Europe it should be a good goal and we are now making every Friday our driving day — driving to places all over the country that we’ve not seen.  I am trying to be positive and figure since we are here we should take advantage.
So this is me trying to forget the past month but, I find it quite difficult.  I am sure a lot of your have had to deal with tough family or church situations, being away from home or being depressed – what has made you feel better or forget past wrongs??
I will be posting more and plan on doing the 12 days of Christmas through photos so look for that.
OH! By the way…. if you are wanting a good, by good I mean amazing, online radio to listen to with never-ending choices for Christmas go to http://www.accuradio.com/ — I usually listen to the broadway station, but switch over for Christmas (although, the do have a Broadway Christmas so I get two-in-one).
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One thought on “‘Tis the Season… and all that Jazz

  1. Ah Jamie, my heart goes out to you. What a challenge you face, it seems, every time you turn around! When I am depressed I feel better by listening to great music (which you might already do since you are so musically inclined) and dancing! As for forgetting past wrongs, if it is a wrong that someone else has done, I decide if the wrong is so bad I don\'t want that person in my life anymore and if it isn\'t that bad I decide to just forget it and move on. No sense in only going halfway through forgiveness. But I tend to be rather extreme so I don\'t even know if what I have said will give you any sort of help. Anyway…..I do hope that the sun will shine for you in an emotional sort of way, you know.

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